I have been on five job interviews in the last month and a half. Not bad, about one interview per week. I haven't gotten a definite "no" on the latest one, but I've gotten my hopes up way too many times to be caring too much right now. The seriously disturbing part is that all but one have been WITHIN my company. You always hear these nightmares about people feeling like they clinched an interview and then some internal idiot from another department snatches up the coveted position. I am that internal person, yet NO success yet! I know I haven't been serious about this for too very long, but I've been with the company for over 3 years now and I need some insight as to what is holding me back.
I constantly question whether my weight is some kind of lingering subconscious factor that negates my good qualities enough to take me out of the running for these positions. Not only do I have to shine through my appearance, but it's been difficult to dress my best for these opportunities because a lot of my business type outfits just don't fit anymore. I am down to one pencil skirt and a shrug style black jacket that I pair with a loud blouse and some funky accessory. Actually, on this latest interview, I was able to squeeze in to a white button up blouse and a gray and pink sweater vest- I think I'll give this combination a few good runs as well. But it feels so lousy when I am trying to psych myself up for a confident interview, and my old go-to black blazer doesnt fit anymore.
So, am I holding myself back because I talk myself in to believing all the interviews see is bulk?
Cross your fingers for me for the job I'm waiting to hear back about...